Happy Saturday! I woke up today with new eyes. I think sometimes it's necessary to think you're going to lose something just to make you appreciate it even more. From the moment I walked into my apartment, I knew it was mine instantly. You know those awesome moments when you see something and you just know it's yours. Words just can't describe that feeling. I have felt that ever since the first day and have appreciated every moment there. Yesterday I had decided that instead of being sad about having to move that I was just going to enjoy every moment of my final time there. A little later in the day I found out I could stay. I feel like a giant weight was lifted off my shoulders in an instant.
Now I see things so differently and that was the reason for everything. Everything is temporary. What might seem permanent is temporary for everything is constantly changing. All you can really count on is change. I woke up feeling different, a sense of calmness that is hard to describe but I am just super thankful.
After my workout this morning I went down to Mothers Beach in the marina and what a beautiful sky reflecting off of the water. It's just so amazing. I just can't get enough of it and to capture it in photo's makes my heart so happy. I never really had that connection before with photographs but now it seems like it's been with me all along. I guess it was just waiting for the right time to emerge. I'm so happy I kept my commitment to myself to wake up and go to the gym, otherwise I would have missed out on this:
Why on earth would I want to sleep in and miss out on this??? The best part? It's a gift. All you have to do is open it up. I think this is the definition of awesomeness.
Yes, it's raining and foggy today and no sign of sun at sunset time. Someone asked me why I was taking pictures and I told him it was sunset time. "But there's no sun, he said." Just because you don't see it, doesn't mean it's not there. Just like my workouts, I don't even think about not going. It's a ritual for me now and I love it! My seagull even waits for me. He was at the very end of the pier, the only bird on the whole pier. That's what I call commitment. I can't leave him there waiting for me ;). Until tomorrow...
April ;)
